Elder Perrin - 21 October 2009

I cant even tell you the magnitude of my love and appreciation for you right now. I just wanted to run to you and give you the biggest hug and kiss when I opened that book and started reading it and looking at the photos. It was really the best gift I have ever recieved in my entire life. I don't even really know what it is. I can't pin point it. But there is something about it that I just love, and oh how I missed you. I really wanted to just call you and tell you I love you, but I guess it's a good thing I couldn't even remember your telephone number. Thank you so much, your the best mommy ever!!! ever!!! i can't wait to see you again. Oh, and then when Elder Zelenskei got his shoes, oh my gosh my heart just filled with so much happiness again, I was so so happy and the best part was that he didn't even speculate that they came from you or my family. He kept looking at his letters to try to match the handwriting to figure it out. And luckily I didn't say anything dumb to have him speculate. Oh I was so happy I had tears flying off my face on the bike ride home after we picked those up. I can't even explain to you, and I guess a lot of it was of the amazingness of my family, and I just got a little taste. I didn't even do anything, all I did was ask you if you guys could do it, and the next thing I know the shoes are in the mail. And in these kinds of times especially when it's a little hard to make a buck, but you just sent him shoes, and oh how his need just was filled and how awesome it was to see the shoes on his feet, and watching him trying to figure out how to handle the nice thing someone did for him. It was as if he didn't understand that someone else in the world might actually care about him. and I know he was happy to get them. Can I just tell you how much I love you? Wow! I just love you. So let me get a story of the week for you here. So it rained a lot this week, icy cold rain. So we were in the rain all day, trying to be happy. And then an appointment wasn't home and Elder Zelenskei just blurts out "I'm not happy Bob!" And then I was like what?? And then he explains the part from "The Incredibles" where he's talking with his tiny boss and then at the end he gets thrown through the wall. "I"m not happy Bob, tell me why I'm not happy." And then I remembered, oh yeah. So basically when it would start to rain harder or something else went wrong, he would just say I'm really not happy Bob, and it was really funny. I laughed a lot. And yesterday, well, it was the first day I ever have been defeated by a fence. I usually can reach my arm around, or stick my hand through, or find someone to open the fence. But this time, the fence beat me, I was stunned. By the time we realized the only way to get in was to jump it, it was time to go to an appointment, which wasnt' even there. It was the first day I have ever been defeated by a fence. How depressing. Well Elder Z and I have decided were going to do even better this transfer. We decided were going to run our shoes to the ground. I love you all, and am so glad your all okay. This is officially the last transfer. 6 weeks. See you soon. Lovec Curtis

Elder Perrin - 21 October 2009

Oh thanks so so much for the package, it was really awesome. That day was pretty cool, we went out to eat as a district after our district meeting. We went to this cool old pizza place and had a pretty good time. The day was normal all except for some realy nice weather, I mean really nice. Like perfect. I was in heaven. We had a few good lessons and it was a really cool birthday. The card made me really miss Charlie. I like just sat their thinking of memories. Sometimes I do that. Just wallow in my memories. And then I saw the picture of you 3 standing together, and how he was so tall and I was just thinking, man I missed all of that, and was kinda sad. But the week was pretty good. My birthday was pretty good. I'm confused on what you said about another package. I didn't know more than one was coming. Maybe I'm confused, or maybe not and I guess we'll see what you mean. So don't worry about me when I get home. I think I'm a lot different and getting along won't really be a problem. Most of the things that brought grief to me were just little things, but now for example, I don't even want a phone. I absolutely despise texting, like I seriously hate it. I don't want a curfew because I miss sleep, and I don't have a girlfreind anymore nor do I really want one now after what I've been through. plus i miss hanging out with my family so doing stuff with you will just be a delight. I miss getting wisdom from you and dad, I can't wait to bank off of your knowledge. Sure there might not be a big change in that aspect, but it will probably be way different because of where I'm at in life. I don't know. I'm not expecting miracles. I just cant wait to give you a big hug and kiss and be apart of your lives again. You know? I don't know. So this member the other day thinks I should be a school teacher because she said I understand kids. It made me think about it. I don't know, I do love kids though, they're great. I think it's all because of Charlie though. Having him as a brother made us all that way I think. So yesterday night was a horrid experience. We ate lunch with this family and did a lesson, then went and did some finding and then at night we had a less active appointment. So we get there and we end up helping them with math homework and fixing a light. But the thing was that she wanted us to eat her food. So we said okay, just a little to be nice. But then Elder Zelensei didn't eat his plate, so basically I did it for him for fear of offending them, but man it made the night horrible. It was a hot plate of food. I just started sweating and had to go to the bathroom after eating it so so fast, to wash my face off and try to rinse my mouth out. But the worst part was the horrible feeling in my stomach afterward. So riding on the bike was just not fun, plus the canceled appointments kind of made it worse. So I basically just went home and tried to throw up but it didn't work. Man, it was a crazy night. So life is good. Thank you so much for the birthday package and the pictures. I miss you alot. Love Curtis

Elder Perrin - 14 October 2009

Oh my goodness, this email just brings me back to you my super duper awesome mother. One day I will come back to you I promise, one day. AND THEN I'M NEVER LEAVING AGAIN!!!!! EVER!!!! Ha ha, I just miss you what can I say , you know??? I'll admit it, I am just really excited to see my mom. Okay, so the shoes, well his named is spelled Elder Zelenskei, and I don't want anyone to know who their from, so I'll just tell the office to tell elder Zelenskei that the shoes are from his ward. That should eliminate the problem, I hope. So just send them, and I'll tell the office to take care of it. So anyway, life is good. Still cold. Im really excited to be done with the bike, I don't know why but I'm really getting tired of riding the bike. There are just these nights where I just would really like to ride home in a car, and not have to freeze my butt off and sweat at the same time to get home, and arrive at the house, sweating and freezing. I feel like I already did it for one winter and already paid my dues kind of thing, let someone else have a turn at the city kind of thing. But nope, I'm doomed for some more cold weather. So let me give you some trunky moments. This morning I pulled out my luggage out of the closet to look for more winter gear, and I realized that the next time I would be pulling those out would be so I could pack and go home in two months. That gave me a smile. I wouldn't have even thought of that had it not been for Elder Z. Another trunky moment, in my next zone conference I will be giving my farewell testimony to everybody. Wow, that's wierd. Did you like the plane picture where I'm staring at my beautiful plane??? Well I'm not that trunky to be honest, but Elder Zelenskei likes to play things out, hence the picture. So I heard it was okay to be trunky, as long as you work still. So we're still workin hard, don't worry. Have I ever told you how much I love you??? Well I just love you so much, your basicaly my favorite, and I'm so so flattered everytime you say that I'm your favorite child and favorite baby and the easiest to handle and all that. What can I say? I do what I can. I do what I can. That's my attituDe since birth, I just was trying to make life easier for you. I like to make life easy for people, hence the wait on walking. I didn't want to walk that would mean you would have to keep an extra eye out on me to make sure I didn't wander off too far. But by just taking a seat and chillin, I just made life easier for you by not doing anything. Am i right??? Who knows. So how was the vacation?? I can't believe the vacations you have been on since I've been gone, it blows my mind. So what do I need to do for school?? I still haven't heard much about that, let me know what the details are and if I need to do anything here. Well let me let you into the mission for just a brief moment. On Sunday we had a lesson right before chruch with a single guy in his basement who seems to be pretty legit. So basically it was a perfect situation to come to church. We had members with us, he didn't have to work, plus he said he was going to come a long time ago, but just hasn't yet. So perfect, the lesson gets over, and we invite him. He of course says yes and we all walk out together, him included, following us to go to church. So we get on our bikes and are expecting him to show up in a bout 2 minutes. This would have proved to be something remarkable because we haven't had someone to church for months, I mean months. People just don't come to church. I dont know why. Anyway, so we wait and wait, and wait some more, and wait. He never showed up. It just doesn't matter how much you do sometimes, sometimes satan is just trickier. For me it was like this, "What else could I have done?????" Absolutely nothing. That was the absolute limit, maximum, the ultimate attempt at getting someoine to church, and it still failed. So basically it's enough to drive someone to depression. But anyway, that's the story of the week, I really have a bunch I could share, but I'll wait till I get home and just share it all I guess. Anyway, I love you. Thanks for all the love from home. You have a fantastic week. Let's remember, there's more to life than work, all we take with us after this life is our knowlege accompanied by our spirit. We take our relationships we have and the spiritual preparation. Thats it, all the stuff stays. Let's remember what's important in life. I think I easily forget a lot. Love Curtis

Elder Perrin - 7 October 2009

So life is good, I'm sick of my bike tires. I think I had like 9 flats this week, due to the fact that my tires are wearing down a little bit and stuff gets through a little bit easier, and I don't want to spend money on new tires, so I'm fixing the tires by cutting an old tube and putting it in the inside of the tire to have an extra layer of rubber between the air tube. I think that should solve my problems. I think today I might get the other bike fixed, the one that has a crack in the frame. I have been to a few muffler shops and they refered me to another place that has the right welder that could possible fix the crack. We'll see. If not, they told me I could definitley put a small piece of pipe on the inside of the bike frame and weld to that, so I might try to do that, hopefull it works. I really want the bike to work because of how much I love it, and I kind of want to send it home, if it's possible. I just don't want to lose it. The work is good. Really hard to get people to church and Elder Z is getting a little down because of it. I think we can keep him happy though. Anyway, conference was good, at least the conference part of the day was good, the rest was a little frustrating and heartbreaking. I liked the talk you shared by Richard G scott, a lot actually because I've always had a hard time with personal revelation and following the spirit. I personally think the one on temperance applied to me the most, and the one on doing the little things to keep our hearts from becoming stony again. That one was good because it gave me inspiration to not lose the scripture reading and constant prayer after this mission. I forgot to send pictures, again. I'm a loser I know, don't worry I know. I need to put in more effort to being more informative to my family, I know I know. I'll try a little harder I guess. I don't even have any excuses, well I do but I really just don't want to give them to you. Anyway, I really appreciate the shoes thing, I hope it doesn't cost to much is the only thing, but I just think you and dad are awesome for being so giving, especially when things aren't the best financially. I really don't even have an idea of how bad it is, but I just thank you so much for being so amazing. Really what would I ever do without you. So what is it about this class that makes you appear more worried than normal. I don't know if you have always felt this way about your classes, having to quiet them down, worried about angry parents or things like that. What is it that makes this class different??? Or is it any different and I'm not gettnig it? What is it?? So, the fall is really nice like last year. I kinda wish I was in a different enviornment this year instead of the same gross noisy busy city, but at the same time I realize the benefits of being here for so long. The best one, and most valuable is the relationships I get to have the members. That's a really good advantage, because most wards just forget about you and when you go back to visit, they have forgoten you. But if you spend more time in a ward, you get to make a lot more freinds and stuff like that. So I have basically two wards, and a branch. If I ever want to come back to visit, I won't have to make any long distance visits or anything like that. My mission areas can be seen in a 15 minute car ride through Chicago, and then you've seen my mishion. Whoo hoo!!! Ha ha, that's so weird to think about though. Anyway, I'm glad to hear that everthing is good. Love you tonz, send my love to my amazing grandparents, I really love them.

So I have a secret. In the priesthood session, during the first talk, I don't know if dad saw it, but when I heard the first talk, I had the most deep feeling of dad sickness, I can't even explain it. As he kept talking it just kept getting worse and worse which eventually led to tears of missing dad. I don't know why, I think it was because I wish I would have been a better son, or because I really have missed his counsel for me here, or maybe because I can't wait to talk to him again and listen to his advice, or maybe because I realized how hard he tried and how much he loved me and Zach, and how I was just so stupid and angry all the time. And then I really, for some reason, wanted to go golfing with him again, and not be such a cold hearted stupid teenager. You know I also realized that dad is rarely wrong, hardly ever. I don't know, I just sickly missed dad and the two months I have seemed really long during that priesthood session. Sometimes the time just never ends quick enough, no matter how short it really is. Anyway, I love you dad, love you mom. Love Curt

Elder Perrin - 30 September 2009

Ooooh I'm so jealous of your conference weekend coming up!!! I wish I could be there with you and hang out and all that, it would be so fun. But anyway, things are good here, I cant complain, except its really cold. Like in the 40's, and it brings back horrible memories of 20 below on icy roads on the bike with a nasty face wind. Ay yay yay! Good thing I'm leaving before it gets that bad. So it's cold here, but with missionary work, the Lord just keeps hooking us up with people to teach, which is awesome. We really are pretty busy, and we do have more decent than average people were teaching which is nice. No one is close to baptism yet, but we have a few that have a really good shot. We're working really well, I'm pretty happy with what were doing. A lot of that contributes to an awesome companion who wants to make the work go, no hinder it if you know what I mean. So that's where I'm at. Coldness, sweaters again. I swear I only wore the short sleave for a week or two, and then back to the sweater. I'm wondering how school is going to work. Do I have to do anything on the computer over here? What do I need to do, just let me know about that. So dad's a fisher now eh?? That's pretty cool, sounds pretty fun. How long is this one going to last??? ha ha. So this primary story has got me really curious, cuz I can totally see that being a problem. And I can just see you in there in the primary bringing down the house, and the reverence. I think I inherited something like that from you, because all the missionaries here ask me how I can get the little kids to be quiet around here. They try to calm them down and do stuff, but then when they try to bother me, I just give them this look, and I sternly tell them to settle down, and then they do it. And then in lessons with families, I don't know how I do it, but I get them to fold their arms and be quiet. It's my only gift I think. I would just love to be there to see you work your magic. So about the shoes, I don't think the best thing for me is to look, I'm really limited I think, and I don't have money. What I really was thinking was that someone over there could go find something, like anything, and then send them. The thing is that I need the shoes to be pretty good, they don't have to be 200 bucks, but at least a good pair that will last. I got mine at Mr Mac, but there might be other places. If you ask the guys at these kind of stores, they should be able to point out the shoe he needs. So I don't know, tell me what you think. We don't have to do it, but if we can I would love it. I can try to look on the internet and see what I can do. Thanks for all the love, I really do appreciate it. I'm sending a few photos today, and tell the primary thanks for the package. I'll probably get it this week. Give them a hug for me. Give Dad and Charlie a hug for me too. I cant wait to see you again, and I love you so much. Love Curtis

Elder Perrin - 23 September 2009

Well as you can see, I didn't write a letter, the stack on my desk grows higher and higher. I'm so sorry I really am. I don't have an excuse. I just do other things on p-day instead of write letters. So I'm so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I have a question. I really want to buy my companion shoes. He really needs shoes. He rolls around in these black skate shoes because he's too poor to buy some good dress shoes, the other dress shoes he has are falling apart everywhere, so he cant wear them. They just aren't cutting it, and he cant just go buy a good pair because he has no money. The old misson president had to buy him pants and shirts and stuff. So I really want to buy him shoes and have him not know about it. He's a size 8.5, can we do it??? I don't want him to know who the shoes are from either, because he'll reject them. He needs shoes like mine, or at least a shoe where the heal won't come off and fall apart. My shoes have been perfect, I couldn't ask for better, but I know mine cost a lot. Is there anything we can do, it would make me so happy? Let me know. So I read between the lines of your email. Mom, you will never know the amazing impact you have had on my life, and on the life of everyone you are around. Don't look at your flaws, that will bring you way down. Just pray to do better and try your best, and apologize when you do something wrong, and move on. You are the best mom that anyone could ask for. Thank you so much for being so amazing. Thinking about sin, leads to sin. Thinking about flaws, leads to those flaws. So just remember that I love you so much, God loves you, and we all love you and we're all in this life journey together, trying to be better. Thank you so much for all you have taught me and the example you have been to me. Without you I would never have come out here, I wouldn't have cared. You care so much, you try so hard, which could be why you feel the most down sometimes because of all you want to do but it outside of your human reach. Just remember how much I love you, and every time you see a plane in the air, just think "that's my sons plane in a few months, here he comes!" Ha ha, okay well I love you. Tell charlie I love him. I cant wait to see him and his crazy num chucks. He should do gymnastics, it's really hard. Don't worry about the transfer, its just not what God wanted I guess. These next two transfers I'm here for my companion, not for the area. Sometimes there's a perspective I fail to miss. I'm just trying to see it. Tell me what you think. Okay, one other thing. What's going on with Candace? Why is Tam telling me not to say stuff I'll regret. Is Candace not really engaged, because she told me she was. I'm confused. Did you know about this??? I mentioned it a while ago, but I thought you already knew. Is this true?? What's going on?? If you know anything, well I could use some help. Thanks : ) love you.

love curtis

Elder Perrin - 9 September 2009

So I got 10 minutes to write this. Email is really short today because of transfers. I'm not doing so good, not really myself for the past few days. My companion got sent home, in fact he might call you and ask for the phone number for Zach. Elder Melchor got sent home yesterday. I spent the day with other missionaries and today I got a new companion. I'm really upset because I don't think this should have happened, and I had a long talk with President, but he didn't understand. He's just new and doesn't get it. It's not like Elder Melchor wanted to go home, but now he's home, miserable, suffering. One of the best missionaries out here for real, is now shamefully at home, when he didn't have to be, while I'm still here. So anyway, I have a new companion. He's Russian and different, but cool. I didn't read your email. Because I have no time, but I saw it was long so I'll enjoy reading it. I was hoping to leave this area but it looks I'll be here till the end. So, there's my mission. Woodstock, and a few square miles of Chicago. Patience Curtis, don't kill these people, they are children of God , is what I find myself saying to myself a lot. So I am so sorry I forgot to send a birthday present or card, or even say happy birthday. I'm worthless, but I love you so much and think your the best. Your so amazing, how you do everything is really beyond me. Love you love you love you
Love Curtis

Elder Perrin - 2 September 2009

I love your letters and the little stuff you tell me about Charlie and stuff. It makes me really miss you and Charlie, but that's ok. It makes me laugh. I love Spongebob. I wish I could be seven with Charlie then we could go hang out all the time. Cereal instead of steak. That's so cool. and so true. I used to eat cereal like crazy!! ha ha. So the basement could be finished? Before this decade ends??? That's crazy. I just think you have a lot of patience and are the best mom ever. EVER!!!! You rock. So school is tiring??? What would give you more energy??? Well I think your doing it; excercise and eating healthy. And you have to drink water and not DIET COKE. I'm serious, the diet coke I swear will take the energy right out of you, and I don't know if you drink it a lot or not, but if you do, mom, don't drink the diet coke. Half a gallon of water a day. For real, it does wonders. Then the veggies and a good breakfast will do wonders. I'm for real, Wheaties with fruit or something. The breakfast is just so good, soo good. So maybe this helps, I know you already know it. I can't say I know what it's like to be stressed and want to eat, because I'm the opposite. But you have to find a different wordly pleasure instead of food for when you come home. I personally, now don't hate me or anything, but I think if it were me I would choose sex, or music, or laughing and hanging out with my family. So just say to yourself, I deserve a romantic moment, or I deserve a good laugh and a good talk, or I deserve an awesome song blasted in my ears right now. I don't know, that's what I think. That's why so many missionaries get fat I think, because we don't have any other of the wordly pleasures, so we just eat food. ha ha, I don't know what I'm saying. This week was cold. I could see my breath in the morning the past 2 or 3 days. It's just like a cold spell, it's really odd, and shouldn't be happening. It's funny , we were talking to this guy on the street by his house, he was pretty cool. Then I asked him "What is going on with this weather here, why is it so cold?" His response made me laugh, he said "I don't know, but we never used to have this problem until everybody started going green." So maybe global warming is a good thing, I don't know anybody who likes freezing their butt off. As for missionary work, it's just a crazy trip. and hey, I'm not depressed!!! ha ha, I can't believe you told the congregation that in your talk, I don't get depressed for crying out loud. I hate that word, maybe next time just use the word a little frustrated with the people, or down about the rejection, or frustrated because of the power satan has to ruin the progress of investigators. I don't know, I just hate the word depressed. I will read to you later what depressed is when I read to you the stories of my second companion. that's depressed. You probably remember. But your talk was awesome. I hope Chels finds a job, it must be hard to not have one. I'm worried about that one too. So the temple, I hope I have desires to go a lot when I get back. You're awesome to get yourself there as much as possible. I love you tonz and don't worry about the memory card. Your the best. Love you.
Love curt

Elder Perrin - 26 Aug 2009

Hey, thanks so much for your love. Well, I loved the email, it was good to hear from you and dad. Dad's advice is dead on the money, but I don't know, I think I might be taking it too far. You see, I see it the same way, and instead of just keeping a good pace at missionary work, it seems I've gone over the edge. I don't know if it's true, it might be just an excuse I give myself for not seeing what the Lord sees. So I go this whole time in this area, not seeing anything come about. And I mean nothing. We teach people but they aren't interested, and we talk to people all the time ( I mean all the time) to find out who is interested. And they aren't. And I don't get discouraged yet, just thinking to myself, "Oh well, the Lord has a purpose for everything..." and stuff like that. But then I get the statistics at zone conference, and mine don't match up at all. In fact mine are way way way below normal. And despite that I talk to probably 10 times the amount of people, I have nothing to show for it. Now it's not about that, at all, it really isn't and I know that. But it does bring up the doubt of, " What am I doing wrong?" So then we go to the book, am I sincere? Do I keep the rules? Am I doing my best? Do I talk with everybody? Am I using time wisely? Yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes. So what is it? Talk to more poeple. But then it seems that the more people I talk to, no joke, the less work we have. That is not an exageration. It's frustrating. Not only that, but my companion writes letters to his girlfriend while we're on the street. I'm talking to this guy and he's chillin' writing a letter. So I guess I just mean it would be nice to see the picture God sees. I'm trying. Lord knows I'm trying. Wow, I'm just tired. So not that I was trying to prove anything to you, but I'm trying. It's nearing the end, but I'm not one to do anything half way, or three fourths the way. We go all the way. The last part of the race should be your fastest. And to be honest, I feel horrible about the money. I don't think I've done a very good job. I don't want to blame it on something, but broken bikes don't help and emergency transfers don't help either. So I'm sorry about the money. I'm trying my best, if you saw what I eat you would know. The other week I wanted to yell at my companion. Here's why. I buy flour, and sugar, and milk, and oil, and eggs, and fruit sometimes, and things to cook like that. And I make food, and I lovingly share because I love to do that. And I don't ask for him to buy stuff to help out. I just spend my money and hope he might say one day, "Dude, I'll buy that, you always buy the food." Okay. Cool. But he hasn't. Okay. No big deal. Well it wasn't, until I found out that the money he saved up on his mission card, he used that money to buy a new camera. I don't know why he chose to do that, he has plenty of money at home. And I don't know why I shared that, my point is that I'm trying my best with the money. It's just hard sometimes. So anyway, thanks for all the news from home. I'm glad for Zach. I really hope he does good. I didn't know Jon worked at the college. But I was wondering if you have all the pictures from my card, because you didn't erase any pictures this time. So, do you just put the pictures on a cd? Should I erase them and use the card? To be honest, I don't even think I'll need it. I think I have plenty of room on my other card. So anyway, this past little bit of time has been difficult to not beat myself up. I tend to do that; just seeing my weaknesses. And finding out about Candace today didn't really help out that much either. So that's why I really appreciate the emails and stuff. Man, I feel like a woman today, and like it's just my time of the month or something. I apologize for the wierd email. I don't think I'm 100 % in my head lately. Lord knows I'm trying. Tell charlie I love him.
Love Curt
p.s. what does 143 mean?

Elder Perrin - 19 Aug 2009

Mom, I just love you. Can I just say that? You are the best. Good thing I came out here on this crazy ride of a mission or I don't think I wouldn't realized how stupid I am. You sound like your excited for Dec 10th??? I can't even tell you how excited I am. Maybe I shouldn't be, but I am super excited. We should hand out. Dad is awesome too. I didn't even say happy birthday to him, what is my problem??? Can you tell him happy birthday for me? And that i love him a lot. I loved your words of wisdom. I can't wait for your talk. It made me excited to read from Doctrine and Covenants. I hate reading from Doctrine and Covenants; Absolutely despise it. I don't know why. Maybe because it's hard for me to recognize the love in the lords vioce or I don't know. I think this could help me gain a testimony on the Doctrine and Covenants. Anyway, you are so smart. What you said about Brian, you like nailed it right on the head. I was thinking the exact same thing when I read that. It's so true, and here I am gossiping about it. He thinks he's Jesus sometimes, it really is true, I just feel bad for Zach. Man, I am so glad he's going to college though, so happy. I wish I could've been there to see Ilah and Spencer in the temple, so badly. I would've been balling the whole time though, no joke. It makes me so happy. Well things are good here. I've been in Chicago for almost a year now, that is crazy. School is starting again, that is crazy. All kinds of people are having babies, that is just crazy. Things are just crazy. My time is running out, and I'm so glad. This summer has been amazing. There has been no heat. I feel bad for all the swimming pools. They probably made no money this year. Sorry I didn't email you last week or the week before. I don't think I got your email because I haven't gotten an email for the past 2 weeks. I don't know if you sent it or something and it didn't come. I need to ask again, did you get my memory card??? Please tell me you did. But don't lie to me. If it didn't come you can tell me. I will cry for a while and then get over it. I wonder if you got my email where I asked you the first time. I don't know, anyway, I love you tonz. Thank you for everything and have a good good week. You're amazing.
Love, Curtis
P.S. oh yeah, do i need to do anything for college??? papers, classes??? let me knowlove you
P.S. again - oh yeah, and tell dad that i am completely down for this girl if he wants me and her to hook up, you should tell this girl to write me, and talk me up too. ha ha, that would be so cool. but seriously, do it. i trust you guys, i think. alright, love youlove curtis

Elder Perrin - 5 Aug 2009

So first, I just need to say that mom, you're in my prayers. And since we all know that missionary prayers are heard more often that everyone elses prayers, I'll pray a lot for you. : ) Ok, so only the hispanic people here think that, but we still love them so much. So I keep forgetting to ask, did my camera card arrive safely home?? No one said anything about it, and so I'm really sick to my stomach that something happened to it. Let me know, please. I sent it like a month ago.

So I weighed myself the other day. I weigh 170. That's just way too light, way too light for me. I'm a little guy, well it feels like it anyway. I went into the MTC at 225 or so, and I'm just way too skinny. The thing is that I can eat. Lord knows I can eat. I'm just tired of cooking. I cant explain it. I'm burnt out on cooking food, so hopefull I'll put some wieght back on when I get home. I think a lot of it that I've lost is muscle weight. That's why I still have a little bit of a gut, but I just need some food. No, what I need is a desire to cook me some food. Lately, I just would rather eat a quick meal and take a 15 minute nap. Maybe we should not skip dinner either. So the transfer just started, and I'm still here in Albany Park, the city area. Things are good.

I got Ilahs letter on Saturday. It was honestly the happiest day of my entire mishion, hands down the most joy I've felt since day one. When I read the letter and card thing, I just got this overwhelming feeling of love and happiness and relief that I've never felt before. Finally, Ilah is going to the temple, and who out of all our family deserves the blessing of the temple. Ilah of course. Who has the cutest and most awesome family that needs to be there after this life? They do duh. Man, I can't even explain it. It was the greatest moment ever. No more waiting. She's going to the temple. I wish I could be there. Although it was a great learning experience for me. For a long time I've wanted to obtain a strong desire to go to the temple, somehow to have a strengthened testimony about it. But I could never figure out how to have more desire to go. For a long time I had doubts that I would be a solid temple visiter when I got home. But I realized, Ilah and spencer are not the only ones waiting. They waited six years, people above have waited hundreds, maybe more to be able to recieve the same blessings. And I , selfish Elder Perrin, can't even find a desire to make a trip to the temple here and there to help out my brothers and sisters??? Man I'm shallow. I can't believe myself sometimes. I didn't even realize How stupid I am, as if I forgot these people we do the work for are real people. Man, I'm a joke. I think the joy for Ilah and Spencer must be 10 times greater, compared to the joy someone feels when they're just newlyweds. Am I right?? That's what I would think. That's just so amazing how they're doing it. It makes me so happy. We'll just say the tears were pouring while I was reading that letter. Yes, I'm a little cry baby. That's just the way God made me. Dad, can I just say you are the man. I'm so glad you raised me. We won't blame the fact that I'm a cry baby on you. That I think I got from mom. It's all right though. Hopefully at my homecoming talk I won't cry.

Thanks for looking for a car for me : ) Hopefully you can find something cheap, and easy to fix. My dream car is still the one Chels wrecked. Just a really small truck, like Tam's. But good luck finding something. I really appreciate it. I wish I could just ride a bike everywhere in Utah. It would save me such a hassle, and money. Well, life here is good. I be eating a lot of rice, and beans, and more rice and beans. It's a good combo. The Mexicans know whats up. Love you mommy. Love you dad. The gospel is true. The prophet talks with God. The Book of Mormon is true.

Love curt

I forgot to tell you. I have some bad news. My bike broke, well not broke, it's totaled. My frame is cracked, at the bottom, and it's unweldable because of rust, and if I continue to ride it, the guy said the post could brake comepletely, which would fold my bike in half. If I were riding that while that happened, well, I could die. So I had to retire the bike. But I got a different bike, from another elder that's going home this transfer, so I'm all set. I just thought you'd want to know that the 150 bucks I spent on fixing that bike up, just went down the drain. Sorry, it's just my luck.

Elder Perrin - 29 July 2009

I really miss your sense of humor sometimes, and I was glad to hear a good report of The family reunion. I can't really say I would've loved to have been their, because, well, it's the family reunion. But you made me laugh a little, I could tell you tried super hard to have a good time, sitting and talking for hours. That's good. Next year I think you and our family should plan it. Golf tournament, and if you don't know how to play, you can't come. That basically eliminates almost every body, so that means we could have a family reunion of you, me, zach, and charlie, and play golf for a week. : ) I'm down for that. No but your a good sport dad. I always have admired you for that. So this week we got dropped by a lot of poeple, that was a bummer. But we had a lady come to church for the first time with her less active husband. That was good. The weather here is just super amazing. I mean, just absolutely perfect, I couldn't ask for better. I don't understand it, maybe i'ts hotter than I think and I'm just smokin, but I am pretty sure i'ts been cooler than last summer was here. The other day we had the senior missionaries take us to this famous barbeque place here in Chicago. It was pretty good. It made me want to go to that one barbeque place I loved, I forgot the name. The place where I would always order the pulled pork and beans. But it was tastey. I'm trying to gain wait lately, it's not really working. I'm a light wieght now, it's kind of pathetic. I'm sure charlie could beat me up now, I wiegh like 175. Other than that, nothing much has been going on. Last p day we went on like a 45 mile bike ride through the forest reserve, and we brought the zone leaders who don't ride their bikes anymore because they have a car. When those two got home, they both threw up and barely made it up the stairs up thier house. It was a funny story. Anyways, thanks for everything. I shouldn't need any money because I only spent like 20 dollars from the money mom gave me a while ago. So I'm good. Thanks though. I was sad to hear about Chris. That is a bummer, it must feel like a betrayal. That's got a hurt. I never thought that would happen. I'm glad to hear you have work, that is a huge blessing. Huge. I pray for you all the time. Thanks for all the love and support.
Love Curtis